Snorting

khrrrrr..... khrrrrrrr..... and then a long khrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........

I was praying and hoping at the same time that it would stop now but
there seemed to be no end to it. krrrrr.... and another session started.

It might have been about half an hour like this, finally I picked up my
cell and saw the time, it was 4:15 am. Only 4 more hours left, 'GOD, i want to sleep'.

It was too much, 'i have to wake him up'.

"WB! WB! wake up"
"huh !!. what ?"
"i am having problems in sleeping"
"huh ?!??!" [blank stare...]
"your snorting has got pretty powerfull, i cant sleep"
"oh!, sorry yar, bata dia karo"
"its not your fault either"

snorting stopped, and it took me nearly half an hour to get back to where i might have left it.....

Although there was this disturbance but I thank GOD that I share my room with only one roommate :)

I found it

its all because...... I AM MISSING MY FAMILY (very much)

stumped !!

Yet another dead day... I seem to have lost the purpose of my life here.Maybe its because that i am missing my family or that i am not enjoying my work since the last week, but maybe its related to what has been happening since the last 4-5 months... I dont know whats the reason but i certainly have something missing, i lost something, my faith ?, my family ? direction ? pata nahin yar

Although I dont have anything that I can present to HIM I still expect HIM to guide me through.

why am i here

Finally a place, where i can have my weird thoughs written down. I dont know if i will be to come here regularly and post.

The reason that i have named my blog as rational disorders is not onlythat the other better names were not available but also that it reflects my mental disorders ;)

So expect the unexpected.

More nonsence coming soon.